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[LINKIN PARK]

I've lied to you

The same way that I always do

This is the last smile

That I'll fake for the sake of being with you

(Everything falls apart, even the people who never frown eventually break down)

The sacrifice of hiding in a lie

(Everything has to end, you'll soon find we're out of time left to watch it all unwind)

The sacrifice is never knowing

Why I never walked away

Why I played myself this way

Now I see your testing me pushes me away

Why I never walked away

Why I played myself this way

Now I see your testing me pushes me away

I've tried like you

To do everything you wanted too

This is the last time

I'll take the blame for the sake of being with you

(Everything falls apart, even the people who never frown eventually break down)

The sacrifice of hiding in a lie

(Everything has to end, you'll soon find we're out of time left to watch it all unwind)

The sacrifice is never knowing

Why I never walked away

Why I played myself this way

Now I see your testing me pushes me away

Why I never walked away

Why I played myself this way

Now I see your testing me pushes me away

We're all out of time, this is how we find how it all unwinds

The sacrifice of hiding in a lie

We're all out of time, this is how we find how it all unwinds

The sacrifice is never knowing

Why I never walked away

Why I played myself this way

Now I see your testing me pushes me away

Why I never walked away

Why I played myself this way

Now I see your testing me pushes me away

Pushes me away

Why does it feel like night today ?

Something in here's not right today

Why am I so uptight today ?

Paranoia's all I got left

I don't know what stressed me first

Or how the pressure was fed

But I know just what it feels like

To have a voice in the back of my head

It's like a face that I hold inside

A face that awakes when I close my eyes

A face watches every time I lie

A face that laughs every time I fall

(And watches everything)

So I know that when it's time to sink or swim

That the face inside is hearing me

Right underneath my skin

It's like I'm paranoid lookin' over my back

It's like a whirlwind inside of my head

It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within

It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin

I know I've got a face in me

Points out all my mistakes to me

You've got a face on the inside too and

Your paranoia's probably worse

I don't know what set me off first but I know what I can't stand

Everybody acts like the fact of the matter is

I can't add up to what you can but

Everybody has a face that they hold inside

A face that awakes when I close my eyes

A face watches every time they lie

A face that laughs every time they fall

(And watches everything)

So you know that when it's time to sink or swim

That the face inside is watching you too

Right inside your skin

It's like I'm paranoid lookin' over my back

It's like a whirlwind inside of my head

It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within

It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin

It's like I'm paranoid lookin' over my back

It's like a whirlwind inside of my head

It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within

It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin

The face inside is right beneath your skin (3x)

The sun goes down

I feel the light betray me

The sun goes down

I feel the light betray me

(The sun..)

It's like I'm paranoid lookin' over my back

It's like a whirlwind inside of my head

It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within

(I feel the light betray me)

It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin

(The sun..)

It's like I'm paranoid lookin' over my back

It's like a whirlwind inside of my head

It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within

(I feel the light betray me)

It's like / I can't stop what I'm hearing within

(The sun..)

It's like / I can't stop what I'm hearing within

It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin

I cannot take this anymore

I'm saying everything I've said before

All these words they make no sense

I find bliss in ignorance

Less I hear the less you'll say

But you'll find that out anyway

Just like before...

Everything you say to me

Takes me one step closer to the edge

And I'm about to break

I need a little room to breathe

Cause I'm one step closer to the edge

And I'm about to break

I find the answers aren't so clear

Wish I could find a way to disappear

All these thoughts they make no sense

I find bliss in ignorance

Nothing seems to go away

Over and over again

Just like before...

Everything you say to me

Takes me one step closer to the edge

And I'm about to break

I need a little room to breathe

Cause I'm one step closer to the edge

And I'm about to break

Everything you say to me

Takes me one step closer to the edge

And I'm about to break

I need a little room to breathe

Cause I'm one step closer to the edge

And I'm about to.. break

Shut up when I'm talking to you

Shut up, Shut up, Shut up

Shut up when I'm talking to you

Shut up, Shut up, Shut up

Shut up, I'm about to break

Everything you say to me

Takes me one step closer to the edge

And I'm about to break

I need a little room to breathe

Cause I'm one step closer to the edge

And I'm about to break

Everything you say to me

Takes me one step closer to the edge

And I'm about to break

I need a little room to breathe

Cause I'm one step closer to the edge

And I'm about to break

I woke up in a dream today

To the cold of the static / and put my cold feet on the floor

Forgot all about yesterday

Remembering I’m pretending to be where I’m not anymore

A little taste of hypocrisy

And I’m left in the wake of the mistake / slow to react

Even though you’re so close to me

You’re still so distant / And I can’t bring you back

It’s true the way I feel

Was promised by your face

The sound of your voice

Painted on my memories

Even if you’re not with me

I’m with you

You / Now I see/ keeping everything inside

With you

You / Now I see / Even when I close my eyes

I hit you and you hit me back

We fall to the floor / the rest of the day stands still

Fine line between this and that

When things go wrong I pretend the past isn’t real

Now I'm trapped in this memory

And I’m left in the wake of the mistake / slow to react

So even though you’re close to me

You’re still so distant / And I can’t bring you back

It’s true the way I feel

Was promised by your face

The sound of your voice

Painted on my memories

Even if you’re not with me

I’m with you

You / Now I see/ keeping everything inside

With you

You / Now I see / Even when I close my eyes

With you

You / Now I see/ keeping everything inside

With you

You / Now I see / Even when I close my eyes

No

No matter how far we've come

I can't wait to see tomorrow

No matter how far we've come I

I can't wait to see tomorrow

With you

You / Now I see/ keeping everything inside

With you

You / Now I see / Even when I close my eyes

With you

You / Now I see/ keeping everything inside

With you

You / Now I see / Even when I close my eyes

Forfeit the game / Before somebody else

Takes you out of the frame / Puts your name to shame

Cover up your face / You can’t run the race

The pace is too fast / You just won’t last

You love the way I look at you

While taking pleasure in the awful things you put me through

You take away / if I give in

My life, my pride is broken

You like to think you’re never wrong (You live what you learn)

You have to act like you’re someone (You live what you learn)

You want someone to hurt like you (You live what you learn)

You want to share what you’ve been through

You live what you learn

You love the things I say I’ll do

The way I’ll hurt myself again just to get back at you

You take away / when I give in

My life, my pride is broken

You like to think you’re never wrong (You live what you learn)

You have to act like you’re someone (You live what you learn)

You want someone to hurt like you (You live what you learn)

You want to share what you’ve been through

You live what you learn

Forfeit the game / Before somebody else

Takes you out of the frame / Puts your name to shame

Cover up your face / You can’t run the race

The pace is too fast / You just won’t last

Forfeit the game / Before somebody else

Takes you out of the frame / Puts your name to shame

Cover up your face / You can’t run the race

The pace is too fast / You just won’t last

You like to think you’re never wrong (You live what you learn)

You have to act like you’re someone (You live what you learn)

You want someone to hurt like you (You live what you learn)

You want to share what you’ve been through (You live what you learn)

You like to think you’re never wrong (Forfeit the game)

(You live what you learn)

You have to act like you’re someone (Forfeit the game)

(You live what you learn)

You want someone to hurt like you (Forfeit the game)

(You live what you learn)

You want to share what you’ve been through

You live what you learn

Crawling in my skin

These wounds / they will not heal

Fear is how I fall

Confusing what is real

There’s something inside me that pulls beneath the surface

Consuming / confusing

This lack of self control I fear is never ending

Controlling / I can’t seem

To find myself again

My walls are closing in

[Without a sense of confidence / I’m convinced

That there's just too much pressure to take]

I’ve felt this way before

So insecure

Crawling in my skin

These wounds / they will not heal

Fear is how I fall

Confusing what is real

Discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me

Distracting / reacting

Against my will I stand beside my own reflection

It’s haunting how I can’t seem

To find myself again

My walls are closing in

[Without a sense of confidence / I’m convinced

That there's just too much pressure to take]

I’ve felt this way before

So insecure

Crawling in my skin

These wounds / they will not heal

Fear is how I fall

Confusing what is real

Crawling in my skin

These wounds / they will not heal

Fear is how I fall

Confusing, confusing what is real

There’s something inside me that pulls beneath the surface

Consuming

Confusing what is real

This lack of self control I fear is never ending

Controlling

Confusing what is real

Graffiti decorations

Under a sky of dust

A constant wave of tension

On top of broken trust

The lessons that you taught me

I learn were never true

Now I find myself in question

They point the finger at me again

Guilty by association

You point the finger at me again

I wanna run away

Never say goodbye

I wanna know the truth

Instead of wondering why

I wanna know the answers

No more lies

I wanna shut the door

And open up my mind

Paper bags and angry voices

Under a sky of dust

Another wave of tension

Has more than filled me up

All my talk of taking action

These words were never true

Now I find myself in question

They point the finger at me again

Guilty by association

You point the finger at me again

I wanna run away

Never say goodbye

I wanna know the truth

Instead of wondering why

I wanna know the answers

No more lies

I wanna shut the door

And open up my mind

I gonna run away and never say GOODBYE !

Gonna run away / Gonna run away

Gonna run away / Gonna run away

I gonna run away and never wonder WHY !

Gonna run away / Gonna run away

Gonna run away / Gonna run away

I gonna run away and open up my MIND !

Gonna run away / Gonna run away

MIND !

Gonna run away / Gonna run away

MIND !

Gonna run away / Gonna run away

MIND !

Gonna run away / Gonna run away

I wanna run away

Never say goodbye

I wanna know the truth

Instead of wondering why

I wanna know the answers

No more lies

I wanna shut the door

And open up my mind

I wanna run away

And open up my mind

I wanna run away

And open up my mind

I wanna run away

And open up my mind

I wanna run away

And open up my mind

What do I do to ignore them behind me ?

Do I follow my instincts blindly ?

Do I hide my pride / from these bad dreams

And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening ?

Do I / sit here and try to stand it?

Or do I / try to catch them red – handed?

Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness,

Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?

Because I can’t hold on / when I’m stretched so thin

I make the right moves but I’m lost within

I put on my daily facade but then

I just end up getting hurt again

By myself [myself]

I ask why, but in my mind

I find I can’t rely on myself [myself]

I ask why, but in my mind

I find I can’t rely on myself

I can’t hold on

To what I want when I’m stretched so thin

It’s all too much to take in

I can’t hold on

To anything watching everything spin

With thoughts of failure sinking in

If I Turn my back I’m defenseless

And to go blindly seems senseless

If I hide my pride and let it all go on / then they’ll

Take from me ‘till everything is gone

If I let them go I’ll be outdone

But if I try to catch them I’ll be outrun

If I’m killed by the questions like a cancer

Then I’ll be buried in the silence of the answer

By myself [myself]

I ask why, but in my mind

I find I can’t rely on myself [myself]

I ask why, but in my mind

I find I can’t rely on myself

I can’t hold on

To what I want when I’m stretched so thin

It’s all too much to take in

I can’t hold on

To anything watching everything spin

With thoughts of failure sinking in

How do you think / I’ve lost so much

I’m so afraid / I’m out of touch

How do you expect / I will know what to do

When all I know / Is what you tell me to

Don’t you [know]

I can’t tell you how to make it [go]

No matter what I do, how hard I [try]

I can’t seem to convince myself [why]

I’m stuck on the outside

Don’t you [know]

I can’t tell you how to make it [go]

No matter what I do, how hard I [try]

I can’t seem to convince myself [why]

I’m stuck on the outside

I can’t hold on

To what I want when I’m stretched so thin

It’s all too much to take in

I can’t hold on

To anything watching everything spin

With thoughts of failure sinking in

I can’t hold on

To what I want when I’m stretched so thin

It’s all too much to take in

I can’t hold on

To anything watching everything spin

With thoughts of failure sinking in

It starts with one thing

I don't know why

It doesn't even matter how hard you try

keep that in mind

I designed this rhyme

To explain in due time

All I know

Time is a valuable thing

Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings

Watch it count down to the end of the day

The clock ticks life away

It's so unreal

Didn't look out below

Watch the time go right out the window

Trying to hold on, but didn't even know

Wasted it all just to watch you go

I kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart

What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when

I tried so hard

And got so far

But in the end

It doesn't even matter

I had to fall

To lose it all

But in the end

It doesn't even matter

One thing, I don't know why

It doesn't even matter how hard you try

keep that in mind

I designed this rhyme, to remind myself how

I tried so hard

In spite of the way you were mocking me

Acting like I was part of your property

Remembering all the times you fought with me

I'm surprised it got so (far)

Things aren't the way they were before

You wouldn't even recognize me anymore

Not that you knew me back then

But it all comes back to me (in the end)

You kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart

What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when

I tried so hard

And got so far

But in the end

It doesn't even matter

I had to fall

To lose it all

But in the end

It doesn't even matter

I've put my trust / in you

Pushed as far as I can go

And for all this

There's only one thing you should know

I've put my trust / in you

Pushed as far as I can go

And for all this

There's only one thing you should know

I tried so hard

And got so far

But in the end

It doesn't even matter

I had to fall

To lose it all

But in the end

It doesn't even matter

I watch how the moon sits in the sky

On a dark night shining with the light from the sun

The sun doesn't give light to the moon

Assuming the moon's going to owe it one

It makes me think of how you act to me

You do favors and then rapidly

You just turn around and start asking me about

Things that you want back from me

I'm sick of the tension, sick of the hunger

Sick of you acting like I owe you this

Find another place to feed your greed

While I find a place to rest

I wanna to be in another place

I hate when you say you don't understand

(You'll see it's not meant to be)

I wanna to be in the energy, not with the enemy

A place for my head

Maybe someday I'll be just like you, and

Step on people like you do and

Run away the people I thought I knew

I remember back then who you were

You used to be calm, used to be strong

Used to be generous, but you should've known

That you'd wear out your welcome

Now you see how quiet it is, all alone

I'm so sick of the tension, sick of the hunger

Sick of you acting like I owe you this

Find another place to feed your greed

While I find a place to rest

I'm so sick of the tension, sick of the hunger

Sick of you acting like I owe you this

Find another place to feed your greed

While I find a place to rest

I wanna to be in another place

I hate when you say you don't understand

(You'll see it's not meant to be)

I wanna to be in the energy, not with the enemy

A place for my head

You try to take the best of me / go away (8x)

I wanna to be in another place

I hate when you say you don't understand

(You'll see it's not meant to be)

I wanna to be in the energy, not with the enemy

A place for my head

I'm so sick of the tension, sick of the hunger

Sick of you acting like I owe you this

Find another place to feed your greed

While I find a place to rest

I'm so sick of the tension, sick of the hunger

Sick of you acting like I owe you this

Find another place to feed your greed

While I find a place to rest

From the top to the bottom

Bottom to top I stop

At the core I've forgotten

In the middle of my thoughts

Taken far from my safety

The picture is there

The memory won't escape me

But why should I care

From the top to the bottom

Bottom to top I stop

At the core I've forgotten

In the middle of my thoughts

Taken far from my safety

The picture is there

The memory won't escape me

But why should I care

There's a place so dark you can't see the end

(Skies cock back) and shock that which can't defend

The rain then sends dripping acidic questions

Forcefully, the power of suggestion

Then with the eyes shut looking thought the rust and rotten dust

A spot of light floods the floor

And pours over the rusted world of pretend

And the eyes ease open and its dark again

From the top to the bottom

Bottom to top I stop

At the core I've forgotten

In the middle of my thoughts

Taken far from my safety

The picture is there

The memory won't escape me

But why should I care

In the memory you'll find me

Eyes burning up

The darkness holding me tightly

Until the sun rises up

Moving all around

Screaming of the ups and downs

Pollution manifested in perpetual sound

The wheels go round and the sunset creeps past the

Street lamps, chain-link, and concrete

A little piece of paper with a picture drawn

Floats on down the street till the wind is gone

And the memory now is like the picture was then

When the paper's crumpled up it can't be perfect again

From the top to the bottom

Bottom to top I stop

At the core I've forgotten

In the middle of my thoughts

Taken far from my safety

The picture is there

The memory won't escape me

But why should I care

From the top to the bottom

Bottom to top I stop

At the core I've forgotten

In the middle of my thoughts

Taken far from my safety

The picture is there

The memory won't escape me

But why should I care

In the memory you'll find me

Eyes burning up

The darkness holding me tightly

Until the sun rises up

Now you got me caught in the act

You bring the thought back

I'm telling you that

I see it right through you (7x)

In the memory you'll find me

Eyes burning up

The darkness holding me tightly

Until the sun rises up

In the memory / you'll find me

Eyes burning up

The darkness holding me tightly

Until the sun rises up

Sometimes I

Need to remember just to breathe

Sometimes I

Need you to stay away from me

Sometimes I'm

In disbelief i didn't know

Somehow I

Need you to go

Don't stay

Forget our memories

Forget our possibilities

What you were changing me into

[Just give me myself back and]

Don't stay

Forget our memories

Forget our possibilities

Take all your faithlessness with you

[Just give me myself back and]

Don't stay

Sometimes I

Feel like i trusted you too well

Sometimes i

Just feel like screaming at myself

Sometimes i'm

In disbelief i didn't know

Somehow i

Need to be alone

Don't stay

Forget our memories

Forget our possibilities

What you were changing me into

[Just give me myself back and]

Don't stay

Forget our memories

Forget our possibilities

Take all your faithlessness with you

[Just give me myself back and]

Don't stay

I don't need you anymore

I don't want to be ignored

I don't need one more day

Of you wasting me away

I don't need you anymore

I don't want to be ignored

I don't need one more day

Of you wasting me away

With no apologies

Don't stay

Forget our memories

Forget our possibilities

What you were changing me into

[Just give me myself back and]

Don't stay

Forget our memories

Forget our possibilities

Take all your faithlessness with you

[Just give me myself back and]

Don't stay

Don't stay

Don't stay

Don't stay.

When this began

I had nothing to say

And I'd get lost in the nothingness inside of me

I was confused

And I let it all out to find /that I'm

Not the only person with these things in mind

Inside of me

But all the vacancy the words revealed

Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel

Nothing to lose

Just stuck/hollow and alone

And the fault is my own

And the fault is my own

I wanna heal

I wanna feel

What I thought was never real

I wanna let go of the pain I've held so long

[Erase all the pain 'til it's gone]

I wanna heal

I wanna feel

Like I'm close to something real

I wanna find something I've wanted all along

Somewhere I belong

And I've got nothing to say

I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face

I was confused

Looking everywhere/only to find that it's

Not the way I had imagined it all in my mind

So what am I

What do I have but negativity

'Cause I can't justify the

Way everyone is looking at me

Nothing to lose

Nothing to gain/hollow and alone

And the fault is my own

The fault is my own

I wanna heal

I wanna feel

What I thought was never real

I wanna let go of the pain I've held so long

[Erase all the pain 'til it's gone]

I wanna heal

I wanna feel

Like I'm close to something real

I wanna find something I've wanted all along

Somewhere I belong

I will never know

Myself until I do this on my own

And I will never feel

Anything else until my wounds are healed

I will never be

Anything 'til I break away from me

And I will break away

I'll find myself today

I wanna heal

I wanna feel

What I thought was never real

I wanna let go of the pain I've held so long

[Erase all the pain 'til it's gone]

I wanna heal

I wanna feel

Like I'm close to something real

I wanna find something I've wanted all along

Somewhere I belong

I wanna heal

I wanna feel like I'm

Somewhere i belong

I wanna heal

I wanna feel like I'm

Somewhere i belong

Somewhere i belong

When I pretend

Everything is what I want it to be

I look exactly like what you had always wanted to see

When I pretend

I can forget about the criminal I am

Stealing second after second just cause I know I can / but

I can't pretend this is the way it will stay / I'm just

Trying to bend the truth

I can't pretend I'm who you want me to be so I'm

Lying my way from you

[no / no turning back now]

I wanna be pushed aside

So let me go

[no / no turning back now]

Let me take back my life

I'd rather be all alone

[no turning back now]

Anywhere on my own

Cause I can see

[no / no turning back now]

The very worst part of you

Is me

I remember what they taught to me

Remember condescending talk of who I ought to be

Remember listening to all of that and this again

So I pretended up a person who was fitting in

And now you think this person really is me and I'm

[trying to bend the truth]

But the more I push

The more I'm pulling away

'cause I'm

Lying my way from you

[no / no turning back now]

I wanna be pushed aside

So let me go

[no / no turning back now]

Let me take back my life

I'd rather be all alone

[no turning back now]

Anywhere on my own

Cause I can see

[no / no turning back now]

The very worst part of you

Is me

This isn't what I wanted to be

I never thought that what I said

Would have you running from me

Like this

This isn't what I wanted to be

I never thought that what I said

Would have you running from me

Like this

This isn't what I wanted to be

I never thought that what I said

Would have you running from me

Like this

This isn't what I wanted to be

I never thought that what I said

Would have you running from me

Like this

[no / no turning back now]

I wanna be pushed aside

So let me go

[no / no turning back now]

Let me take back my life

I'd rather be all alone

[no turning back now]

Anywhere on my own

Cause I can see

[no / no turning back now]

The very worst part of you

The very worst part of you

Is me

There are just too many

Times that people

Have tried to look inside of me

Wondering what I think of you

And I protect you out of courtesy

Too many times that I've

Held on when I needed to push away

Afraid to say what was on my mind

Afraid to say what I need to say

Too many

Things that you've said about me

When I'm not around

You think having the upper hand

Means you've got to keep putting me down

But I've had too many stand-offs with you

It's about as much as I can stand

Just wait until the upper hand

Is mine

One minute you're on top

The next you're not

Watch it drop

Making your heart stop

Just before you hit the floor

One minute you're on top

The next you're not

Missed your shot

Making your heart stop

You think you won

And then it's all gone

So many people like me

Put so much trust in all your lies

So concerned with what you think

To just say what we feel inside

So many people like me

Walk on eggshells all day long

All I know is that all I want

Is to feel like I'm not stepped on

There are so many things you say

That make me feel like you've crossed the line

What goes up will surely fall

And I'm counting down the time

Cause I've had so many stand-offs with you

It's about as much as I can stand

So I'm waiting until the upper hand

Is mine

One minute you're on top

The next you're not

Watch it drop

Making your heart stop

Just before you hit the floor

One minute you're on top

The next you're not

Missed your shot

Making your heart stop

You think you won

And then it's all gone

And then it's all gone

And then it's all GONE

And then it's all GONE

Now it's all gone

I know I'll never trust a single thing you say

You knew your lies would divide us

But you lied anyway

And all the lies have got you floating

Up above us all

But what goes up has got to fall

One minute you're on top

The next you're not

Watch it drop

Making your heart stop

Just before you hit the floor

One minute you're on top

The next you're not

Missed your shot

Making your heart stop

You think you won

And then it's all gone

And then it's all gone

And then it's all GONE

And then it's all GONE

Now it's all gone

Its easier to run

Replacing this pain with something numb

Its so much easier to go

Than face all this pain here all alone

Something has been taken

From deep inside of me

A secret I've kept locked away

No one can ever see

Wounds so deep they never show

They never go away

Like moving pictures in my head

For years and years they've played

If I could change I would

Take back the pain I would

Retrace every wrong move that I made I would

If I could

Stand up and take the blame I would

If I could take all the shame to the grave I would

If I could change I would

Take back the pain I would

Retrace every wrong move that I made I would

If I could

Stand up and take the blame I would

I'd take all the shame to the grave

Its easier to run

Replacing this pain with something numb

Its so much easier to go

Than face all this pain here all alone

Sometimes I remember

The darkness of my past

Bringing back these memories

I wish I didn't have

Sometimes I think of letting go

And never looking back

And never moving forward so

There would never be a past

If I could change I would

Take back the pain I would

Retrace every wrong move that I made I would

If I could

Stand up and take the blame I would

If I could take all the shame to the grave I would

If I could change I would

Take back the pain I would

Retrace every wrong move that I made I would

If I could

Stand up and take the blame I would

I'd take all the shame to the grave

Just washing it aside

All of the helplessness inside

Pretending I don't feel so misplaced

Is so much simpler than change

Its easier to run

Replacing this pain with something numb

Its so much easier to go

Than face all this pain here all alone

Its easier to run

If I could change I would

Take back the pain I would

Retrace every wrong move that I made

Its easier to go

If I could change I would

Take back the pain I would

Retrace every wrong move that I made I would

If I could

Stand up and take the blame I would

I'd take all the shame to the grave

I am

Little bit of loneliness

A little bit of disregard

A handful of complaints

But I can't help the fact

That everyone can see these scars

I am

What I want you to want

What I want you to feel

But it's like

No matter what I do

I can't convince you

To just believe this is real

So I let go

Watching you

Turn your back like you always do

Face away and pretend that I'm not

But I'll be here

Cause you're all I got

I can't feel

The way I did before

Don't turn your back on me

I won't be ignored

Time won't heal

This damage anymore

Don't turn your back on me

I won't be ignored

I am

A little bit insecure

A little unconfident

Cause you don't understand

I do what I can

But sometimes I don't make sense

I am

What you never want to say

But I've never had a doubt

It's like no matter what I do

I can't convince you

For once just to hear me out

So I let go

Watching you

Turn your back like you always do

Face away and pretend that I'm not

But I'll be here

Cause you're all I got

I can't feel

The way I did before

Don't turn your back on me

I won't be ignored

Time won't heal

This damage anymore

Don't turn your back on me

I won't be IGNORED

No

Hear me out now

You're gonna listen to me

Like it or not

Right NOW

Hear me out now

You're gonna listen to me

Like it or not

Right NOW

I can't feel

The way I did before

Don't turn your back on me

I won't be IGNORED

I can't feel

The way I did before

Don't turn your back on me

I won't be ignored

Time won't heal

This damage anymore

Don't turn your back on me

I won't be ignored

I can't feel

Don't turn your back on me

I won't be ignored

Time won't heal

Don't turn your back on me

I won't be ignored

Nothing ever stops all these thoughts

And the pain attached to them

Sometimes I wonder why this is happening

Its like nothing I can do will distract me when

I think of how I shot myself in the back again

Cause from the infinite words I could say / I

Put all the pain you gave to me on display / but didn't

Realize / instead of setting it free / I

Took what I hated and made it a part of me

[it never goes away]

[it never goes away]

And now

You've become a part of me

You'll always be right here

You've become a part of me

You'll always be my fear

I can't separate myself from what I've done

I've given up a part of me

I've let myself become you

Hearing your name / the memories come back again

I remember when it started happening

I'd see you in every thought I had and then

The thoughts slowly found words attached to them

And I knew as they escaped away I was

Committing myself to them / and every day I

Regret saying those things / cause now I see / that I

Took what I hated and made it a part of me

[it never goes away]

[it never goes away]

And now

You've become a part of me

You'll always be right here

You've become a part of me

You'll always be my fear

I can't separate myself from what I've done

I've given up a part of me

I've let myself become you

[it never goes away]

[it never goes away]

[it never goes away]

[it never goes away]

Get away from me

Gimme my space back / you gotta just GO

Everything comes down to memories of YOU

I've kept it in but now I'm letting you KNOW

I've let you go

GET AWAY FROM ME

Get away from me

Gimme my space back / you gotta just GO

Everything comes down to memories of YOU

I've kept it in but now I'm letting you KNOW

I've let you go

And now

You've become a part of me

You'll always be right here

You've become a part of me

You'll always be my fear

I can't separate myself from what I've done

I've given up a part of me

I've let myself become you

I've let myself become you

I've let myself become lost inside these

Thoughts of you

Giving up a part of me

I've let myself become you

Memories consume

Like opening the wound

I'm picking me apart again

You all assume

I'm safe here in my room

Unless I try to start again

I don't want to be the one

The battles always choose

Cause inside I realize

That I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for

Or why I have to scream

I don't know why I instigate

And say what I don't mean

I don't know how I got this way

I know it's not alright

So I'm

Breaking the habit

Breaking the habit

Tonight

Clutching my cure

I tightly lock the door

I try to catch my breath again

I hurt much more

Than anytime before

I had no options left again

I don't want to be the one

The battles always choose

Cause inside I realize

That I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for

Or why I have to scream

I don't know why I instigate

And say what I don't mean

I don't know how I got this way

I'll never be alright

So I'm

Breaking the habit

Breaking the habit

Tonight

I'll paint it on the walls

Cause I'm the one at fault

I'll never fight again

And this is how it ends

I don't know what's worth fighting for

Or why I have to scream

But now I have some clarity

To show you what I mean

I don't know how I got this way

I'll never be alright

So I'm

Breaking the habit

Breaking the habit

Breaking the habit

Tonight

I don't know who to trust

No surprise

Everyone feels so far away from me

Heavy thoughts sift through dust

And the lies

Trying not to break

But I'm so tired of this deceit

Every time I try to make myself

Get back up on my feet

All I ever think about is this

All the tiring time between and how

Trying to put my trust in you

Just takes so much out of me

Take everything from the inside

And throw it all away

Cause I swear / for the last time

I won't trust myself with you

Tension is building inside

Steadily

Everyone feels so far away from me

Heavy thoughts forcing their way

Out of me

Trying not to break

But I'm so tired of this deceit

Every time I try to make myself

Get back up on my feet

All I ever think about is this

All the tiring time between and how

Trying to put my trust in you

Just takes so much out of me

Take everything from the inside

And throw it all away

Cause I swear / for the last time

I won't trust myself with you

I won't trust myself on YOU

YOU

YOU

Waste myself on YOU

YOU

YOU

I

Take everything from the inside

And throw it all away

Cause I swear / for the last time

I won't trust myself with you

Everything from the inside

And just throw it all away

Cause I swear / for the last time

I won't trust myself with you

You

You

Peep the style and the kids checking for it

The number one question is how could you ignore it

We drop right back in the cut

Over basement tracks

With raps that got you backing this up like

[rewind that]

We're just rolling with the rhythm

Rise from the ashes of stylistic division

With these non-stop lyrics of life living

Not to be forgotten

But still unforgiven

But in the meantime there are those who wanna

Talk this and that / so I suppose

That it gets to a that point feelings gotta get hurt

And get dirty with the people spreading the dirt

[it goes]

Try to give you warning

But everyone ignores me

[told you everything loud and clear]

But nobody's listening

Call to you so clearly

But you don't want to hear me

[told you everything loud and clear]

But nobody's listening

I got a heart full of pain / head full of stress

Handful of anger / held in my chest

And everything left is a waste of time

I hate my rhymes

[but hate everyone else's more]

I'm riding on the back of this pressure

Guessing that it's better

That I can't keep myself together

Because all of this stress

Gave me something to write on

The pain gave me something I could set my sights on

You never forget the blood sweat and tears

The uphill struggle over years

The fear and trash talking

And the people it was to

And the people that started it

Just like you

Try to give you warning

But everyone ignores me

[told you everything loud and clear]

But nobody's listening

Call to you so clearly

But you don't want to hear me

[told you everything loud and clear]

But nobody's listening

I got a heart full of pain / head full of stress

Handful of anger / held in my chest

Uphill struggle / blood sweat and tears

Nothing to gain / everything to fear

Heart full of pain / head full of stress

Handful of anger / held in my chest

Uphill struggle / blood sweat and tears

Nothing to gain / everything to fear

Heart full of pain

Heart full of pain

Heart full of pain

Heart full of pain

Try to give you warning

But everyone ignores me

[told you everything loud and clear]

But nobody's listening

Call to you so clearly

But you don't want to hear me

[told you everything loud and clear]

But nobody's listening

I got a heart full of pain / head full of stress

Nobody's listening

Handful of anger / held in my chest

Nobody's listening

Uphill struggle / blood sweat and tears

Nobody's listening

Nothing to gain / everything to fear

Nobody's listening

[coming at you]

[coming at you]

[coming at you]

[coming at you from every side]

I'm tired of being what you want me to be

Feeling so faithless

Lost under the surface

I don't know what you're expecting of me

Put under the pressure

Of walking in your shoes

[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]

Every step that I take is another mistake to you

[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]

I've

Become so numb

I can't feel you there

Become so tired

So much more aware

I'm becoming this

All I want to do

Is be more like me

And be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me

Holding too tightly

Afraid to lose control

Cause everything that you thought I would be

Has fallen apart right in front of you

[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]

Every step that I take is another mistake to you

[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]

And every second I waste is more than I can take

I've

Become so numb

I can't feel you there

Become so tired

So much more aware

I'm becoming this

All I want to do

Is be more like me

And be less like you

And I know

I may end up failing too

But I know

You were just like me

With someone disappointed in you

I've

Become so numb

I can't feel you there

Become so tired

So much more aware

I'm becoming this

All I want to do

Is be more like me

And be less like you

I've

Become so numb

I can't feel you there

I'm tired of being what you want me to be

I've

Become so numb

I can't feel you there

I'm tired of being what you want me to be

wake in a sweat again

another day's been laid to waste

in my disgrace

stuck in my head again

feels like i'll never leave this place

there's no escape

i'm my own worst enemy

i've given up

i'm sick of living

is there nothing you can say

take this all away

i'm suffocating

tell me what the fuck is wrong with me

i don't know what to take

thought i was focused but i'm scared

i'm not prepared

i hyperventilate

looking for help somehow somewhere

and you don't care

put me out of my misery

i dreamed i was missing

you were so scared

but no one would listen

cause no one else cared

after my dreaming

i woke with this fear

what am i leaving

when i'm done here

so if you're asking me i want you to know

when my time comes

forget the wrong that i've done

help me leave behind some

reasons to be missed

don't resent me

and when you're feeling empty

keep me in your memory

leave out all the rest

leave out all the rest

don't be afraid

i've taken my beating

i've shared what i made

i'm strong on the surface

not all the way through

i've never been perfect

but neither have you

so if you're asking me i want you to know

forgetting / all the hurt inside you learned to hide so well

pretending / someone else can come and save me from myself

i can't be who you are

here we go for the hundredth time

hand grenade pins in every line

throw 'em up and let something shine

going out of my fuckin mind

filthy mouth / no excuse

find a new place to hang this noose

string me up from atop these roofs

knot it tight so i won't get loose

truth is / you can stop and stare

bled myself out and no one cares

dug the trench out / laid down there

with a shovel up out of reach somewhere

yeah / someone pour it in

make it a dirt dance floor again

say your prayers and stomp it out

when they bring that chorus in

i bleed it out

digging deeper just to throw it away

just to throw it away

i bleed it out

i bleed it out / go / stop the show

choppy words and a sloppy flow

shotgun opera / lock and load

cock it back and then watch it go

mama help me / i've been cursed

death is rolling in every verse

candy paint on his brand new hearse

can't contain him / he knows he works

fuck this hurts / i won't lie / doesn't matter how

hard i try

half the words don't mean a thing and i know i

won't be satisfied

so why try ignoring him

make it a dirt dance floor again

say your prayers and stomp it out

when they bring that chorus in

i open up these scars

i'll make you face this i pull myself apart

i'll make you face this

i open up these scars

i'll make you face this now

i close both locks below the window

i close both blinds and turn away

sometimes solutions aren't so simple

sometimes goodbye's the only way

and the sun will set for you

the sun will set for you

and the shadow of the day

will embrace the world in grey

and the sun will set for you

in cards and flowers on your window

your friends all plead for you to stay

sometimes beginnings aren't so simple

sometimes goodbye's the only way

and the shadow after day

will embrace the world in grey

and the sun will set for you

in this farewell

there's no blood

there's no alibi

cause i've drawn regret

from the truth

of a thousand lies

so let mercy come

and wash away

what i've done

i'll face myself

to cross out what i've become

erase myself

and let go of what i've done

put to rest

what you thought of me

while i've cleaned this slate

with the hands

of uncertainty

for what i've done

i start again

and whatever pain may come

today this ends

i'm forgiving what i've done

turn my

mic up louder i got to say something

lightweights step it aside when we come in

feel it in your chest / the syllables get pumping

people on the street they panic and start running

words on loose leaf sheet complete coming

i jump in my mind and summon the rhyme i'm dumping

healing the blind i promise to let the sun in

sick of the dark ways we march to the drum and

jump when they tell us that they wanna see jumping

fuck that / i wanna see some fists pumping

risk something / take back what's yours

say something that you know they might attack you for

cause i'm sick of being treated like i have before

like it's stupid standing for what i'm standing for

like this war's really just a different brand of war

like it doesn't cater to rich and abandon poor

like they understand you in the back of the jet / when you

can't put gas in your tank / and these fuckers are

laughing their way to the bank / cashing the check

asking you to have compassion / have respect

for a leader so nervous in an obvious way

stuttering and mumbling for nightly news to replay

and the rest of the world watching at the end of the day

in their living room laughing like

what did he say

in my living room watching / i am not laughing / cause

when it gets tense i know what might happen

the world is cold / the bold men make action

have to react or get blown into fractions

ten years old / it's something to see / another

kid my age drug under a jeep

taken and bound / and found later under a tree

i wonder if he had thought the next one could be me

do you see / the soldiers / they're out today they

brush the dust from bulletproof vests away

it's ironic / at times like this you pray

but a bomb blew the mosque up yesterday

there's bombs on the busses / bikes / roads

inside your market / your shops / your clothes / my dad

he's got a lot of fear i know

but enough pride inside not to let that show

my brother had a book he would hold with pride

a little red cover with a broken spine

on the back / he hand wrote a quote inside:

'when the rich wage war it's the poor who die'

and meanwhile / the leader just talks away

stuttering and mumbling for nightly news to replay

the rest of the world watching at the end of the day

both scared and angry like

what did he say

with hands held high into a sky so blue

as the ocean opens up to swallow you

are you lost / in your lies

do you tell yourself i don't realize

your campaign's a disguise

replaced freedom with fear / you trade money for lives

i'm aware of what you've done

no / no more sorrow

i've paid for your mistakes

your / time is borrowed

your time has come to be replaced

i see pain / i see need

i see liars and thieves abuse power with greed

i had hope / i believed

but i'm beginning to think that i've been deceived

you will pay for what you've done

thieves and hypocrites

no / no more sorrow

i've paid for your mistakes

your / time is borrowed

your time has come to be replaced

your time has come to be erased

my insides all turned to ash / so slow

and blew away as i collapsed / so cold

a black wind took them away / from sight

and held the darkness over day / that night

and the clouds above move closer

looking so dissatisfied

but the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing

i used to be my own protection / but not now

cause my path had lost direction / somehow

a black wind took you away / from sight

and held the darkness over day / that night

and the clouds above move closer

looking so dissatisfied

and the ground below grew colder

as they put you down inside

but the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing

so now you're gone

and i was wrong

i never knew what it was like

to be alone

on a valentine's day

let me apologize to begin with

let me apologize for what i'm about to say

but trying to be genuine

was harder than it seemed

and somehow i got caught up in between

let me apologize to begin with

let me apologize for what i'm about to say

but trying to be someone else

was harder than it seemed

and somehow i got caught up in between

between my pride and my promise

between my lies and how the truth gets in the way

the things i want to say to you

get lost before they come

the only thing that's worse than one is none

let me apologize to begin with

let me apologize for what i'm about to say

but trying to regain your trust

was harder than it seemed

and somehow i got caught up in between

and i cannot explain to you

in anything i say or do or plan

fear is not afraid of you

but guilt's a language you can understand

i cannot explain to you

in anything i say or do

but hope the actions speak the words they can

for my pride and my promise

for my lies and how the truth gets in the way

the things i want to say to you

get lost before they come

the only thing that's worse than one is none

telling me to go

but hands beg me to stay

your lips say that you love

your eyes say that you hate

there's truth in your lies

doubt in your faith

what you build you lay to waste

there's truth in your lies

doubt in your faith

all i've got's what you didn't take

so i / i wont be the one

be the one to leave this

in pieces

and you / you will be alone

alone with all your secrets

your regrets

don't lie

you promise me the sky

then toss me like a stone

you wrap me in your arms

and chill me to the bone

there's truth in your lies

and doubt in your faith

what you build you lay to waste

there's truth in your lies

and doubt in your faith

all i've got's what you didn't take

so i / i wont be the one

be the one to leave this

in pieces

and you / you will be alone

alone with all your secrets

your regrets

don't lie

water grey

through the windows

up the stairs

chilling rain

like an ocean

everywhere

don't want to reach for me do you

i mean nothing to you

the little things give you away

and now there will be no mistaking

the levees are breaking

all you've ever wanted

was someone to truly look up to you

and six feet / underwater

i do

hope decays

generations disappear

washed away

as a nation simply stares

all you've ever wanted

was someone to truly look up to you

and six feet / underwater

i do

all you've ever wanted

was someone to truly look up to you

and six feet / underground now

i do

Standing alone with no direction

How did I fall so far behind

Why am I searching for perfection

Knowing it's something I won't find

In my fear and flaws

I let myself down again

All because

I run

'Till the silence splits me open

I run

'Till it puts me underground

'Till I have no breath

And no roads left but one

When did I lose my sense of purpose

Can I regain what's lost inside

Why do I feel like I deserve this

Why does my pain look like my pride

In my fear and flaws

I let myself down again

All because

I let myself down

In my fear and flaws

I run

'Till the silence splits me open

I run

'Till it puts me underground

'Till I have no breath

And no roads left but one

No roads left but one

In my fear and flaws

I let myself down again

All because

I run

And the silence splits me open

I run

And it puts me underground

But there's no regret

And no roads left to run*